This Mom Trusted Her Gut And Found A Wonderful Thing

I wrote a while ago on my blog about my relationship with my mother’s friend Bea, who is eighty-four and who lost her husband of sixty years. Bea and my mother, who passed away several years ago, were friends since kindergarten. Yes, Bea is in my blood. I ran into her arms after not seeing her for several years and embraced her and her unending grief, which spilled into my heart. There was a special honor—and responsibility—I felt being there for Bea at this difficult time in a way her own children couldn’t. My mother’s spirit was nodding approval and at the moment that I hugged Bea, I knew what I had to do.

FEELING VULNERABLE? SO WHAT

Here, I would like to explain how I knew. First I would like to say, that although I talk about this topic often, I feel a bit raw sharing my thoughts. I knew that, even though I agreed unabashedly to do it, part of me still wondered if you would laugh or think that what I say is silly or obvious or unimportant. At times, it feels so vulnerable being seen, doesn’t it? Will we disappear if we’re not seen for who we really are?

THE DIAMOND INSIDE

My saving grace is that the part of myself that I want to share isn’t looking for anyone’s approval. It is so strong it’s had me move mountains. Trust myself above all else. Know that this part of myself, which, I believe, is connected to something greater than myself, is all I ever truly have or need. Along with the present moment. Other people, however well meaning (or not), have their own struggles and agendas, which can color their responses to us. But this unseen part of ourselves or force of goodness guides us unconditionally, telling us our truth, even when we’re not so keen on hearing its wise words.

I’m talking about our intuition.

OUR INNER WISDOM CONNECTS US TO OUR TRUE SELF

Please don’t jump to conclusions. It took me years of practicing following my intuition to be able to trust what my heart knew about Bea. For a good part of my life I doubted that still, small voice inside. Although I was one of the lucky ones. At least I heard my intuition whispering do this or don’t do that. Some people don’t hear their intuition at all. My problem was that I didn’t trust it, which meant that I didn’t trust myself; I believe that they are one and the same thing. That’s a painful way to live, doubting and second-guessing myself all the time, and living below my full potential. Can you relate? Have you been trusting your gut?

NEVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF AND NEVER STOP TRUSTING YOUR GUT

I was lucky. Alongside my doubt, my intuition guided me to believe in and trust myself; it never gave up, and even though it took me years to listen, somehow I knew that it spoke my truth. I knew in every fiber of my being. I finally started listening, and as a result I know myself a lot better, and know who I am as a powerful woman.

WHAT A WAY TO LIVE

My life has been an amazing journey. It hasn’t always been easy, but my intuition is my inner compass that points the way, not matter what the situation. It has shown me that I have a purpose in life and what that purpose is. As a result, I feel fulfilled, my personal and professional life intricately interwoven and flowing. Keeping an open stance has made this possible. Rule one when it comes to following our intuition: Be open, and trust, especially during the tough times, when it’s the hardest. No matter. Holding that intention is what counts most.

TAKE THE NEXT STEP

We all have that wise part of ourselves. If you’re already living according to your heart’s wisdom or have set an intention to do so, I applaud you. Let my words be a good reminder to trust even more deeply today, and that good company is stronger than willpower. If you’re not so sure-footed in this arena, relax. I’m sure you’ve heard glimmers of that wise woman inside. I invite you to take the next step and listen to her today. Go ahead. Ask her a question.

What is your intuition saying?

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Gail Harris is mom to a 12-year-old boy. She is the author of Your Heart Knows the Answer and co-author of Finding Zoe, whose Foreword was written by Academy-Award winner Marlee Matlin. Tweet with her and visit her White Bread Wisdom ® Blog